And yet again...my heart is breaking

Tue, 17 Jan 2006 14:30:44 GMT

I hate Heath Carter!! Actually, I love him, I just have ignored him for most of this year, and i don't know why. I've had a class w/ him all year...but he IGNORES ME!

Thu, 10 Nov 2005 14:18:30 GMT

Just when I'm trying to turn everything around, my world crumbles at my feet.

Fri, 04 Nov 2005 14:44:02 GMT

Seduce my mind and you can have my body,
Find my soul and I'm yours forever.
~ by Anonymous ~

Mon, 31 Oct 2005 16:46:15 GMT

"My baby's gone...I have no friends."

^Identify the song^

Thu, 27 Oct 2005 13:17:47 GMT

The car is runnin' and your bags are packed
I guess that says it all
Your head is hangin' and you look real sad
Maybe you should've called
You say you think you need a brand-new start
You're really sorry that you broke my heart
Well, I'm not really fallin' apart, but baby

You can feel bad if it makes you feel better
Picture me cryin' reading all your love letters
Walkin' around in your old sweaters, baby
You can feel bad if it makes you feel better

Maybe I'll go out tonight, yeah, I'll paint the town
And maybe I'll run into you, while I'm runnin' 'round
There's a good chance I'll be alone
An even better one that you won't
And when it's time for me to go home, baby

You can feel bad if it makes you feel better
Picture me cryin' reading all your love letters
Walkin' around in your old sweaters, baby
You can feel bad if it makes you feel better
If it makes you feel something

Yeah, take another look at these tears I'm crying
They're not fallin' on your shoulders, they're fallin' on mine
Yeah, Ive seen this comin' for a long, long time
Now, I'll be just fine

You can feel bad if it makes you feel better
And picture me cryin' reading all your love letters
Walkin' around in your old sweaters, baby
You can feel bad if it makes you feel better

You can feel bad if it makes you feel better
And picture me cryin' reading all your love letters
Walkin' around in your old sweaters, baby
You can feel bad if it makes you feel better

If it makes you feel something
If it makes you feel better

Thu, 27 Oct 2005 13:16:43 GMT

Well, good mornin'
Tell me how'd you sleep last night
You're still smiling
So we must've done something right
Don't feel guilty
Because you turned to me last night

We ain't done nothin' wrong
We've just been lonely too long
No, we ain't done nothin' wrong
We've just been lonely too long

It's only natural
When you've been too long in the dark
To look for comfort
And to warm yourself by the fire
We're just afraid
That we might get our fingers burned

But we ain't done nothin' wrong
We've just been lonely too long
Nothing's wrong that can't be cured
with a new love
All you need is someone like me to
be sure of, to be your love

I'll be waiting
Standing right outside your heart
And I'll be watching
For the slightest sign of a spark
And I'll be here
If you should want to turn to me

'Cause we ain't done nothin' wrong
We've just been lonely too long

Thu, 27 Oct 2005 13:13:55 GMT

Miss Dramatic= Melissa Jacobson
Class favorite.
Cracks me up.

Wed, 19 Oct 2005 13:58:09 GMT

I've been long, a long way from here
Put on a poncho, played for mosquitos,
And drank til I was thirsty again
We went searching through thrift store jungles
Found Geronimo's rifle, Marilyn's shampoo
And Benny Goodman's corset and pen

Well, o.k. I made this up
I promised you I'd never give up

If it makes you happy
It can't be that bad
If it makes you happy
Then why the hell are you so sad

You get down, real low down
You listen to Coltrane, derail your own train
Well who hasn't been there before?
I come round, around the hard way
Bring you comics in bed, scrape the mold off the bread
And serve you french toast again

Well, o.k. I still get stoned
I'm not the kind of girl you'd take home

We've been far, far away from here
Put on a poncho, played for mosquitos
And everywhere in between
Well, o.k. we get along
So what if right now everything's wrong?

Wed, 19 Oct 2005 13:55:53 GMT

"If it makes you happy..."

Mon, 26 Sep 2005 15:44:00 GMT

Ah...an update...How refreshing.

So much drama...I've never been a fighter, but I'm thinking of becoming one.

Bruises EVERYWHERE from being drug through mud.

White t-shirt + pouring down rain + males= DANGER!

I hate having to go home...

Tue, 17 May 2005 17:35:15 GMT

Yet again, I'm making this journal Friends Only...Comment to be added!

Fri, 06 May 2005 04:40:57 GMT

01. Reply with your name and I will write something about you.
02. I will then tell what reminds me of you.
03. If I were to apply an o'clock to you, it would be...
04. I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
05. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you.
06. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you.
07. Put this in your journal.

Wed, 04 May 2005 17:23:27 GMT

Test results were inconclusive.

Tue, 03 May 2005 15:29:01 GMT

Mom gets the results of her tests today.

Wed, 27 Apr 2005 15:40:11 GMT

Forever running, but losing the race....were it not for grace.

I've been thinking....I've neglected God so much lately. I still pray, and he still answers. He's the only reason I didn't run out of gas this morning when I drove 20 miles way past empty. He helped w/ Mom's tests. I feel horrible. Does my Christianity really mean nothing to me? No, it doesn't. It's EVERYTHING! But I don't act like it. I just go with the flow of things....

Mon, 25 Apr 2005 15:40:10 GMT

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Public entry. Anonymous comments welcome.

Tue, 12 Apr 2005 15:43:43 GMT

Let's do that anonymous comment thing again shall we? I'm making this entry public and you're all encouraged to leave as many anonymous comments as you want. Say what you want, tell me a secret, tell me something you wouldn't if I knew who you were, be mean, be honest, drop me a piece of advice, make a confession... Anything goes. And I won't cheat, I turned off the IP logging so there's no way I'll know who you are.

So come on out and play.

Fri, 08 Apr 2005 17:52:59 GMT

Too much crap is going on in my life. I can't even begin to describe all of it....

Chris will be here for prom!

Tue, 05 Apr 2005 17:30:27 GMT

"I just wanna be close..."

Thu, 31 Mar 2005 05:52:55 GMT

If we could meet, (and even if we have) but we could only have 24 hours together, just one day out of our whole lives, what would you like to spend those 24 hours doing?

Comment and let me know, then post this in your journal to find out just what others would like to do with you.

Thu, 24 Mar 2005 16:51:48 GMT

THIS MAKES ME ANGRY! THE PICTURES WERE THERE LIKE TWO SECONDS AGO!

Thu, 24 Mar 2005 16:50:26 GMT

IT'S THE PICTURE THAT WOULD NEVER LOAD! YAY! KAYLIN AND I TAKE GREAT PICTURES!

Thu, 24 Mar 2005 16:43:55 GMT

I kinda like this. It's classic, but a little boring.... This is fun, but maybe a little too funky for my dress...

I like this one too.

I love this, but I doubt my hair would stay like this for long. Plus I think alot of other people are doing this. I've gotta be unique...

For some weird reason, the picture will only paste upside down. This makes no sense to me!

I LOVE this picture of me and Hollen. She hates it because she looks fat, but I think it's great!

My babies!!

Disney world was so fun with Kaylin!

Wed, 23 Mar 2005 16:33:38 GMT

I got in my car yesterday after school and I had a text message from Kyle. "I hope you have a better day today than yesterday. I miss you and I can't wait to hold you. Here's a kiss from me to you." I was like AWwwwwwwwwHhowwwSweet!

I think I'm gonna get to see him Friday for like, 2.5 seconds. Me, Melani, and Jeremy are going to get my prom dress!

Tue, 22 Mar 2005 16:33:52 GMT

Has it really been like almost 2 weeks? Let me start from where I left off.

The journalism girls and I went to Monroe last Friday and tried on dresses and took pictures. Kyle ended up meeting us at Peking and watching Holley, Hill, and Stacey. Needless to say, he didn't like them. Stacey ( who is black if u didn't know) was calling everyone niggers and Holley was just being the spazz that she is. Kiss #2! .... After that, we played around in the mall and made it back by 3:10 where this lil black girl called me a ho! That upset me, but whatever. I went to counselling and then I went to the lock in. We played games and stuff and we went to bed around 4. At 7 we got up and went fishing for all of 20 minutes.

I went to the grocery store and got 40 dollars worth of food for the clique. We grilled burgers and me and Jordan laid on the back of Nick's tailgate talking for like 2 hours. I gave him a massage, and can I say that was the hottest thing ever? LOL. Britt, Melani, and Jeremy were all piled up in his bed, and who knows where Nick and Collin were. That was such a lazy afternoon but it was wonderful. A few hours later, me and Britt followed Mr. Allan to Winnfield. But, we got distracted along the way by these two beyond gorgeous guys that kept racing us.... The guys won their first game. And then Coach Mabou made us go sit in the bleachers and not by the fence and they LOST the 2nd game. Hmm.

We got up the next morning and went to church. I can't remember what I did after church...at all. That's ok. I went to discipleship and ladi-da.

Monday and Tuesday- testing. I know I failed Science. I got the duck foot and ostrich foot confused. I did well in History.

Wednesday- came in at 11, watched movies all day.

Thursday- came in at 10, watched movies all day.

FRIDAY! Me and Britt and Aaron skipped school (w/ permission) and went to go see The Ring 2!! It was SOO scary, man! That chick could climb up that well like a monkey! After that we took Aaron home, and we went back to my house to clean up. At like....7, Aaron, Phillip, and Kaylin came over and we all watched The Exorcist and The Grudge. Everyone left. Saturday morning, I cleaned house, went and practiced w/ Janna and came home. Then I went and got Phillip and went to Casey's. We all went to Jim Bowies. On the way, I know me and Britt were going 110, racing Aaron b/c he was being stupid. On the way home, he passed us...and he had no lights on! After that, me Kaylin, Emily, Phillip, Ricky, and Aaron went back to the house and played on the deck in the middle of the night for hours! We 'bout scared ourselves to death!

Sunday was youth Sunday, and I was so nervous about singing. But I gave it all to God. We were first and CHRIS CAME TO HEAR ME SING! And I know this sounds conceited, but it was absolutely beautiful. My strong soprano w/ Janna's soft alto blended so perfectly....And Jordan and Collin's testimonies were so good. THE BAND....oh heaven's to betsy they were HOT. Justin, Justin, Dustin, and Tim. WOW. Jay's sermon went really really well. At 2 o'clock I went back to the church w/ Britt and Collin to work on our God sized challenge, and we never got it done. After church and discipleship, I went home.

Yesterday, I went to the bank and shredded paper for 3 hours. That equals 16 dollars. I think I made atleast a B on my Chem test, and that's good!

I'm in love with Jordan Roberts. I've liked him for almost 3 years now, and this is killing me. He's talking to this girl who hates, me and I really don't know why bc we've never talked. But, I think this is retarded. He's like haunting me in my dreams....and the only person I talk to about it is Jeremy. It's his cousin and best friend, you think he could help me out. It isn't working. Ok, I had to get that off my chest and out in the open.